Ever felt like a horrible person?
Just felt like oops I didn't mean it that way but its out now so what can I do?
For the past year I have been on a fitness kick, I have changed my habits totally, moving away from being a couch potato and becoming a gym bunny.
In that process I have lost some weight and lost a dress size or two (well I have lost 62lb and 3 or 4 dress sizes) and now ppl feel like the can talk about it.
It was me that did all that work, why are you proud? I slogged my guts out at the gym, I ran in the cold, I sweated like a sweaty person, not you, why do you get to talk about it and be proud?
thats my gripe today.
I feel horrible.
I know my friends are pleased for me. I know that I have changed pretty significantly. I know that it is becoming more and more noticeable, BUT, it wasn't you that did it. So, sorry folks, I don't want you being proud of me, I don't want you asking me how much I have lost, or when I am going to stop.
I'm not going to stop.
This is the new me.
I'm not on a diet.
I'm not even trying to lose weight anymore.
I have changed my lifestyle.
I will continue to exercise 6 days a week from now on, cos I LIKE HOW IT MAKES ME FEEL.
I do not like the exercise bit so much some times, but I love that feeling that a good workout gives me.
I love that sweaty finish, with aching muscles, with shortness of breath and knowing that I worked damn hard during that session.
If you want to look at me and talk about something, don't talk about how I did it, talk about how you can do it too.
Because if I can, you can too.
Use me as inspiration if you want.
Use me as an example of a fat girl changing her life.
And then start making healthier choices.
One choice at a time.