More and more people are starting to notice that I have lost weight. People are stopping me in work telling me how well I look.
But why can I not see it?
I know I must have lost weight (I have lost 2 1/2 stone) but I look at myself and I don't see it. I am starting to feel just a little worried about myself. Is it that I am developing body dysmorphic syndrome? Or just that it is happening gradually and like a child growing up, I just don't see it cos it happens every day?
Have any of you ever experienced this?
What did you do?
I have decided to just wait it out. I believe it is happening too slowly for me to see. It is happening tho. I am not that delusional!!
October is when me and R are going on holiday. I am looking forward to it. I want to be able to wear a swimsuit without feeling self conscious. I amnot sure it will happen for October, but I can at least try. I reckon I have something in the region of another 4 dress sizes to go down before I will feel happy. That will not happen for October. So, if I could get down another 2 I would be happy. I am not sure that can happen. I have a friend who it a fitness instructor who has basically told me I would have to starve myself (less than 1,000 kcal per day) to lose that much weight....I dunno. If I work really hard at the gym I might...mightn't I?
It is like the tortoise and the hare. Slow and steady wins the race. If I lose it too fast it will remember where it came from and jump back on, and bring a few friends. If I lose it slowly it will slip off without realising and won't be able to find it's way back onto my hips!!
On a totally random and unconnected note. Don't you love it when your favourite bloggers put up an unexpected or extra post? I do. :-)
Catch you soon. I have work to do, then the gym to go to this evening. That weight aint gonna lose itself!